So here I am today. Probably because this is the best way to "talk" to "someone". This journal at least is a constant thing who doesn't really care what I write here but takes it all in ( Read more... )

 "Be the person you were in the relationship even without the relationship." 

 AH THIS PLACE IS SHIT REALLY. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE. SOMEONE JUST TAKE ME AWAY FROM ALL THIS SHIT. SWIPE ME FROM THIS FUCKING WORLD AND JUST LET ME DISAPPEAR ( Read more... )

 I know it's been one depressing post after another. It sucks I know but it's the only way I'll be able to feel better. The only way I can at least stabilize this emotional instability. The only way to know that I'm not depressed. I know I'm sad and breaking apart deep inside. I'm so tired already, tired of trying to be okay. Tired of avoiding him ( Read more... )

 Recently things have been topsy turvy so to speak. Holidays ended which sent me into a long spiral downwards to cramming each and every project that was given before the holidays. What hurts the most is, I could've done it earlier but I didn't. So I crammed, and luckily enough extensions were given yet I failed to complete the task given to me. ( Read more... )

 I've spent New Year's pretty much cooped up in this head of mine. Gradually cringing to the pain in my heart. So I'm going to curl up in the bed tonight and drown myself in thoughts and work 'til the sun rises. I need to distract myself. I think I'll go disappear for a while. I'll submerge myself with work and pass my subjects. I'll leave this ( Read more... )

 
( Read more... )

 Year end blog? Hmm, partly. Kind of. I just want to give a moment at least to recollect how my 2010 just went. I don't remember much to be honest. Ah, I wish I blogged more about this year so I can look back remember what happened since the start of January. I guess I can't take back lost time in a way, my memory's been fuzzy lately. I'm actually ( Read more... )